Healing word association

Healing
water
herbs
zen
forgiveness
platonic
remembering the past and the future
being greatful for the good things in life
Tao, Tao means how, How the universe works.
meditation
exercise
Yoga
giggling Buddha
Lotus growing from mud
spontaneous jam session
the beach at night
hugging my daughter for longer than she wants
....
To be continued.

Smell the Roses on my Own

I hate having a desperate heart. It takes me further from my true self.
I just don't understand why it's so easy for him.
The only explanation is he didn't feel as deeply for me as I thought,
and as I did.
I think about all the people in the World who don't find love.
How selfish and small minded of me to care so much about this loss.
I've loved and loved again. I've hurt people worse than I'm hurting right now.
I just hate this feeling. It makes me lose my Love for Life.
I'm fighting for it though.
I made a promise to myself that I'd never forget to keep loving Life and the beautiful Universe.
To never get too bitter.
Right now, I don't want to love again.
I'm powerless over Love though. I love Love.
Time to gear up for the next roller coaster.
It's sure enough coming. Maybe I can hold off for a while.
Not too long. But long enough to give myself time to smell the roses on my own.

1:32 Subconscious

Churning in the basement of my mind,
I fall down the steps, into the sand,
 the mother calls out for me, I am silent
I turn to see who is next to me, the church bell is ringing
"Time and time again, we meet here", he said
"The days just keep getting shorter."
I follow the lizard through the door
He leads me into the 4 dimension
floating common consciousness
I wait for your voice
to say, "It's okay."

Achy Breaky

My heartache came back too fast
bein' back here with you gone
I want to run to my old vices
but I can't allow myself the easy way
You may be able to hide from your pain
but mine follows where I go
My heart eases when your around
For you it's not the same
Out of sight, out of mind
I wish it was the same for me
If I could just pretend I didn't love you
If I could just pretend I didn't care
I wouldn't be feelin' all this pain right now
I could go back to the way it was before you
I know this is something we have to do
sometimes I'm not as sure
Part of me wishes it wasn't true
But I will go on and my heart will heal
Just wish it could be today
Just wish it could be now
I don't like spending all this time crying.